Day One

Today I have to start eating better. I know, how many times have I said those famous words. I really have to master this and figure out how I can make this happen. Here's what always happens:
1. I am all excited to get started and have the perserance to keep going for about 1 week (ocassionally it's one day).
2. I hate most vegatables so it's really hard for me to find something to eat and altho I have figured out how to make broccoli in a ziploc bag with some EVOO (thanks Rachel) and Mrs Dash seasoning in about 30 seconds, some days it just tastes awful to me.
3. I'm a binge eater so eventully it overcomes me and I can't stand it anymore.
4. I'm too stupid to figure out why I overeat and don't have the slightest idea how to figure it out. I know, you're supposed to 'feel' the emotion at the time you want to eat but I'm not sure what the emotion even is.....boredom? nutty bars sound really good to me now? I love food and it's a pleasure to eat it? Like right now, I would love to go to the pantry and get something to eat but am I really hungry......not really. Maybe I as feeling apprehensive about this process. I did find myself stalling earlier when I had told myself I WAS going to start this blog today.......all of the sudden I feel this strong need to clean the kitchen!
5. I know just about everything there is to know about dieting....really! Seriously, I have done just about every one there is. And I do know this, I think all of that has screwed me up! I was really good with Atkins for several months and lost quite a bit of weight but I can't even stand to think about going low carb again and when I do, it lasts about a week or closer to a day.
6. I have been getting heavier every year and I can't seem to stop. I have about 40 pounds to lose which when I look at some of these other blogs where people have lost 100+ pounds I am embarrassed and baffled that I can't seem to lose even 5 lbs!!

Okay, enough for now.....
Coming up next........

What I need to focus on daily to make a change in my food life.